Sunday, November 30, 2008

Is this the turning point, when I become a bitter hag?

No joke. I see a lot of patients in the midst of their crisis and the crisis hadn't developed in the past 24 hours but rather a long period of decompensation through maladaptive coping mechanisms to not deal with real issues due to their inability to recognize the painful reality or not knowing how to deal with it....thinking it will "just go away", "time heals everything"--type scenarios. Which never work out, instead it slowly changes us over the years to the person we grow up to be, even if we didn't necessarily choose to be that person.

In hindsight, my beginning point probably happened in 6/08, nonetheless, in 10, 20, 30 years from now, when I have hit the bottom of my personal hell, I will re-count the events from which it all began and 2008 may be "my beginning point." I really hope not, but it sure feels that way lately.


Friday, November 7, 2008


The "dr" and "rn" are back at work after their "peer review board" BUT! the Texas Medical Board has decided to investigate because of the complaint.


Faith in humanity and laws......RESTORED!!!!!

The best part of it is, the "peer review board" was confidential and I was not allowed to participate or give my timeline of events, whereas, the Texas Medical Board has called me for my timeline, perception and a notarized statement.

TMB is good!!! ;) Poor investigator that called.....she got an earful and an 8-page, single space recollection of the events detailed with names, times, contact info.......This mother doesn't mess around when it comes to the welfare of her boy!!!

I am only able to do this because of my fantastic State Representative and his staff, who have continued to follow this case from day one. I have received updates from his staff, informing me of what is happening and what is going on. They connected me into the Texas Medical Board and provided them with my contact info, otherwise, the investigation may have been one-sided and incomplete.


"The less people know about how sausages and laws are made,
the better they'll sleep at night."

-Otto von Bismarck